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Let's address the Clay Aiken thing once more. Apparently, some of you don't believe me when I say that I am surprised and sad to read that he is officially, 100% gay.

For the two and a half years since this blog has been up, I've mentioned in passing my Clay obsession. Apparently I wasn't clear enough. So let me break it down for you:

* I bought his debut album the very day it came out. Actually I had my boyfriend at the time go to the store and get it for me in case it sold out while I was in class and meetings.

* In college, four girlfriends and I hopped in a car and drove to Atlanta to see him and Kelly Clarkson in concert. We made friends with a security guard who upgraded our seats AND told us Clay would be coming through the audience. We grabbed dozens of free glow in the dark buttons and spelled C-L-A-Y on our shirts so he would see us from the stage--the stage that I wanted to rush. Then we waited in the parking lot until his bus left and followed it all the way to the interstate.

* Not only have I read his book - twice - I own it. And I was actually given two copies for Christmas the year it came out but took the duplicate copy back to the bookstore.

* I took my mom to Atlanta to see his Christmas show. And this time, I really did rush the stage. I crept to the very front row and sat in an empty seat for a few songs, then went back to join my mom.

* Finally, I am in the Clay Aiken Lovers group on Facebook. And I'm one of FOUR members!

So in summation -- yes, I like Clay Aiken. A lot. And to answer the question I have been asked over and over since the news "broke" yesterday, did I know he was gay? YES. But I was denying it as much as I could. It's like when you see an ugly baby. You know its parents know it's an ugly baby. But they don't want to believe their baby is ugly and they sure can't admit that their baby is ugly. So what do they do? Deny. It's a cute baby, right? She'll grow into a swan one day, right?

I was living in denial. Hoping Clay and I would prove the world wrong. Unfortunately, the day will never come.

All my friends who told me he was gay - you win. You were right. I was wrong. Gaydarless, devastated, and wrong.

I guess I need to move on and you know who is really good-looking? Anderson Cooper.