Friday, May 29, 2009


Trips! Birthdays! Concerts! Cake and gloss and glitter! Things sound pretty rosy over here right now, don’t they? They are. I am very fortunate and have so much to look forward to in June. But I am very glad to see May end.

Did you know the sorority that I pledged was not my first choice? I was smiling ear-to-ear in every picture I was in that day, but inside, I was not happy to be starting off college by not getting my way. Especially since I had moved to Auburn with a mental agenda of how I wanted things to go. Now I know that when beginning any new venture, packing your mental agenda is the worst mistake you can make. Because little did I know, Bid Day would be one of several times in college I wouldn’t get my way. I didn’t make Camp War Eagle in 2003, like I wanted to. I never was selected as a War Eagle girl. My senior year, I didn’t get the position I wanted in SGA. And clearly, I never had a candlelight.

But you know what? I wouldn’t change a thing about my college career. Not the disappointments, not the times I failed others, and not even the times I felt others had failed me. Because not only did I learn a valuable lesson, but those valleys paved the way for some greater dreams that I didn’t even have on that mental agenda that I brought with me to college, like being named Miss Homecoming. And as it turned out, my sorority sisters and my group of fellow CWE counselors ended up being the perfect fit for me. I thrived and flourished and made some of my best friends to this day. And so I’ll say it once again: looking back, I wouldn’t have changed a thing.

So this weekend, as I am grieving over another disappointment, I’m clinging to a well-worn hope; those words that feels so familiar by now. Better days lie ahead. That doesn’t mean I haven’t cried about it and I’m not sad. But I have to remember that I have walked this road before. This view looks familiar. This is for a reason. And one day, I’ll look back at all of this and say those familiar words: I wouldn’t have changed a thing.


  1. I for one am very glad you didn't pledge some other sorority!! We were so lucky to have you in ADPi. I'm sorry you are feeling disappointed about something.

  2. Good Post my Little tea bag!! We can hear God best in the valleys and not on the Mountaintops

  3. Angie Stabler5/30/2009 11:12 AM

    I hope everythings okay right now Linz?
    I have to say, I am some what in the same boat with you right now, but with a different situation. GOD is teaching me many things these days.
    If you need to talk, please feel free to e-mail me.
    Love you!!


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